Saturday, March 22, 2014

His Joy, My Strength

Altar Ministry training for Simply Worship 2!

Drums Theory Lesson at SW2 workshop
Oh how I love the usher shirt HAHAHA :D
Because taking selfie with your hands is too mainstream...
Simply Worship #2 Night rally worship 

My church, The Outreach Singapore!
Participants from SW2!
Jesus Culture Singapore and KL Volunteers!
They are coming to Singapore on 5th April!!! :D 
Kingdom Invasion Martin Smith Worship leading
Bill Johnson, Kingdom Invasion #2 night rally
Heidi Baker, Kingdom Invasion #4 night rally 
One of my dear covenant friends I saw at KI! <3 td="">
Woohoo hey bloggers and readers I’m finally back with FIRE hahaha :D This week has been a really awesome week, and the photos you just saw above were 2 conferences I went for. The first was a worship event organized by my church known as “Simply Worship 2”, with worship music training and a time when we behold the King of all Kings and invite Him to come as we worship, The second one was a conference known as “Kingdom Invasion”, where special speakers like Heidi Baker, Randy Clark, Bill Johnson, etc etc were invited to share what God has placed in their hearts for Singapore, and they preached the word. It was an awesome time seeing the healings that took place, and GOD’s sweet Presence coming and have His way.

Before these 2 events took place, I felt God preparing my heart to expect bigger things. I felt Him stirring a hunger in my spirit, and my heart had a desperate cry - I do not want to just talk about stories of the old. 1 day before Simply Worship 2 (SW2), I felt God telling me, “I will give you new experiences so that you won’t need to keep talking about stories of the old.” Cutting the long story short and moving forward to the first night, as I was worshipping, my hands were trembling, and the more I relaxed, the more it shook. I found myself asking, “why” for 2 reasons, one was because I could think rationally, and I felt nothing emotional going on, so I couldn’t understand what God was doing. Later, as I quieten down those questions in me, I felt God saying that this is an encounter of His power, and that supernatural things, however well explained, cannot be perfectly rationalized, because the supernatural is a realm going beyond human logic and understanding. But you can recognize if this is GOD moving by the fruits produced.

The 2nd “why” I had was due to the feeling I had like what Isaiah felt in Isaiah 6, when He saw the LORD high and lifted up. Why will such a big God choose to reveal Himself to a small me? As I thought about this, I felt overwhelmingly loved by God, and I really felt compelled – I want others around me to know who Jesus is, feel His love and be transformed by Him, because I’m convinced He is real.

I’ll just proceed to share one more testimony before I move on to share about Kingdom Invasion (in short, KI). At the 2nd night of SW2, the speaker was sharing about the story of Joseph and his brothers, later branching out into inner healing. It was really a good because I felt GOD once again breaking off those lies that have moved me away from my true identity, and I felt Him setting me free. I know I’m really GOD’s precious, and if you happen to be reading this too, I want to let you know that you are His precious son/daughter, and He really loves you a lot.

Moving on to KI, it was a pity that I could only go for the 2nd night and the 4th night because I had work commitments and could not make it for the conference. What was great about this, though, was the 4th night when Heidi Baker was preaching about flowing in GOD’s river with unspeakable joy and full of glory, taken from Revelation 22 and Ezekiel 47. I felt GOD reminding me about a dream I felt Him gave to me a few years back, also drawing from Ezekiel 47, saying, “It's when you begin to walk with Me till you are so full in My Presence, that when any obstacles or trials come your way, you will not fear. For I am walking with you as you remain in Me.” Also, as we were worshipping, there was so much joy flowing as we celebrated GOD’s goodness with praise, and I’m really thankful to GOD for whatever that has been happening through this week.

Putting all the good things GOD has been doing in collation, I felt there was a reason behind why GOD moved the way He moved during this whole week for me. The fruit of the encounters was the strength that GOD provided me so that I can run this race with the joy of GOD, and as I proceed with the ministry and life commitments GOD has placed for me, I know if I don’t flow in the river, I will burnout; if I don’t have His power, I can’t be an effective witness and live in the best way (GOD’s way). Apart from Him, I can do nothing – not that I'm deemed useless, but I can only do what’s possible in human’s strength, but I won't be able to do impossibilities. I thank GOD for His grace and guidance, for placing good covenant friends and an awesome family of GOD that doesn’t contend for anything less than the fullness of Jesus, His glory and love revealed.

Strength will really rise as we wait upon the LORD. And the joy of the LORD is my strength! #contendingforbreakthrough

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Tuesday, March 4, 2014

You're Beautiful



“I remember a time when I too felt unbeautiful. I put on the TV and only saw pale skin, I got teased and taunted about my night-shaded skin. And my one prayer to God, the miracle worker, was that I would wake up lighter-skinned. The morning would come and I would be so excited about seeing my new skin that I would refuse to look down at myself until I was in front of a mirror because I wanted to see my fair face first. And every day I experienced the same disappointment of being just as dark as I had been the day before. I tried to negotiate with God: I told him I would stop stealing sugar cubes at night if he gave me what I wanted; I would listen to my mother's every word and never lose my school sweater again if he just made me a little lighter. But I guess God was unimpressed with my bargaining chips because He never listened.” - Lupita Nyong'o

Interestingly, I felt I could relate to what she was saying. I recalled the time my father asked if I would want to do surgery to remove those scars I had on my hand and leg, and correct my nose. As a kid, I didn’t feel a need to do surgery, because I wouldn’t die anyway. As much as it wasn’t a life and death issue on the outside, it was a life and death issue on the inside, creeping into the world of my self-image and dampening my esteem because I didn’t know the truth at that time.

Since GOD is a miracle worker, I believe if I placed my hands on those scars, it would disappear, and my nose would look perfect as well. Time and time again, the scars wouldn’t go away. And as I saw those scars and perceived those imperfections, it left scars after scars in my soul as well. I thought I wasn’t beautiful, and I didn’t understand why God wouldn’t answer my prayers. As I approached Him with those prayers everyday, He would reply, “Child, you’re beautiful.” And to this reply, I couldn’t understand why, because I did not feel that way.

Today, as I understand the truth of who I am, I realized that I am really beautifully and wonderfully made by GOD, regardless of how I felt. Even when Jesus was on the cross, being crucified and flogged, I believed His face and body looked rather unrecognizable covered with gore and scars, but that didn’t stop GOD from calling Him, “My Son.” And the same goes to me – I could spend the whole day pointing towards my outward imperfections [and even as a matter of fact, the things I did that I have perceived as failure, incompetence, etc.] and dismiss my beauty, but it doesn’t stop GOD from calling me His daughter, His precious, beautifully and wonderfully made.

“There is nothing you can do to make God love you more, for God already loves you perfectly and totally. But more wonderfully, there is nothing you can do to make God love you less—absolutely nothing, for God already loves you and will love you forever.” The truth of who I am and what true beauty is set me free from the false lies and what the world define beauty as, and helps me to stay contented with what I do have. I hope if you are reading this, you’ll be reminded that GOD really loves you, and you are beautiful just the way you are.

Psalm 139:14 (NIV) - I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
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